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Somehow, I don’t know what he is really up to. Yesterday became the worst day with him, almost went to the point that I realy want to delete him on my ym. I dont know what happen, or what he really want. But why is he still having conversation with me? Why he still keep me on conversation.

And even if I know now that I’m just worthless to him, the game which I created for him seems to wake me up at kahit paano ay nagkakaroon naman ako ng mga reason para kontrahin ang mga nararamdaman ko. Siguro lang binibigyan ko ng panahon o pagkakataon ang mga bagay na nais kung mangyari. I’ll keep some distance for myself para na rin di ako masyado pang masaktan pag natapos na ito.

Yes, I still find him as special but I know it wont happen. Kahit sabihin pa nya na gusto nya akong pakasalan? And then saying it’s for pass time…. Masakit kaya, alangan namang ipagsiksikan ko sarili ko. Kung ganito naman talaga ang totoo, kaya kung panindigan kung ano man ang laro ko at laro nya. I always play with risk.. it’s how my life revolved. And whatever happen in the end? I choose it, I’ll regret but I wont ever change what I invest..

                                                                               -raven